by the lake

♥ 12:55 AM

strange. i tot that janice was quite optimistic actually. but i was proven wrong TODAY.

I AM NOT WANTING YOU DEAD, JANICE. why did u say that?
i am sorry okay? i already said that this is life. and u said "ok". and then "gtg".
WHAT'S THE MEANIN OF THIS ANYWAY?

she tot that the teacher gave up on her. waliao!! i tot that u were stronger than me in any way. because u din get help from anybody but sorta taught urself. but fer mii, i was always depending on Justin. and that's the reason why i hate myself for this. I DIN REALLY DARE TO ASK HIM HOW TO PLAY.

but at least u are different. i mean u really go and ask wang lao shi. zhou lao shi u also go andd asked him. BUT WHY DID YOU GIVE UP ON YOURSELF FOR THIS?

what on earth and who in this world am i scoldin anyway? me or u? janice? huh.

i oso nid tuhh go andd buck up anyway. I SUCK. SUCK IN PIPA. ANDD EVEN IN PIANO I ALSO START TO SUCK. right. so i nid tuhh practice. andd todae i must practice lerrs. BOTH PIPA AND PIANO.

but u ARE different okay janice? at least when u got the time tuhh practice u borrow ur liuqin home andd play the song. I ADMIRE YOU, seriously. your preserverance. your hardworking spirit.

but all that is going tuhh vanish, anyway. i know. because YOU DUN HAV THE COURAGE TUHH STAND UP FOR URSELF. YOU DON'T WANT TUHH LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE. when it's still months away to the concert u started to chicken out.

what and who are trying to bluff? c'mon. everybody noes that the two songs are DAMN hard. i also noe alright.

sorry for displayin this attitude tuhh you janice.

by the lake