♥ 1:30 AM
ermmm.
thot that i shud change mii blog design again..
budden i very tired liaoxx.
plae until no strength to even go and change...
haissh.
anticipatin Christmas to come. and hopin that time dun fly so fast.
i dunch noe why. weird feelin ehhs??
regretted that i scolded those vugarities in the last post.
I AM TRULY SORRY.
it's not that bcos i am a Christian that i "ACT ACT" okies??
sorry. that's all i can say, isn't it?
and i repent. i MUST AND WILL REPENT ON IT
right.
the Christmas play... i noe that i am just actin as a bypasser. budden i'm still not prepared to face the audience,
AND I DUNCH NOE IF MY MUM'S COMIN OR NOT...
sad, isn't it? only i am goin tho this church.
SPIRITUAL GRACE PREBYTERIAN CHURCH
wadeva church i go. it is still the same.
bcos i still believe in God.
but how do u suppose mii to go and accomodate. with those new faces?
with this kinda silly behavior?
i call miiself silly because i dun wanna AND dunno how to jus open mii mouth and say
"HI" or
"CAN WE BE FRIENDS?"
and i cried and cried and cried
hopelessly
because i dun realli hav any REAL friends
melissa. if u see this. pls dun misunderstand.
i jus feel that u are leavin mii.
gettin further.
tsk.
i hate mii tear glands.
because they are TOO DEVELOPED
they can jus drop tears without givin mii notice....
sometimes i jus hate mii self.....
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♥ 12:59 AM
she makes empty promises. which means that she doesn't even fufill them.
stupid behavior.
everytime she said that she will go and do it. but then in the end she will never even touch that thing she was supposed to do.
AND THAT'S ME.
i dun noe why lar.
i think that this year was quite a waste. because i didn't really go and accomplish anything. except that i learnt "some" pipa skills. and that i got merit - 125/150 - in my piano exam.
i snatched the 7th position in class in the first semester.
but then i dropped.
and this caused me to write LOADS AND LOADS of posts of it. stupid right??
thot that i was a CHRISTIAN and Christians shudden really behave like this lor.
and this is what most people will say if they see me in this state.
and then i met good people. in CO. in 1 DEVOTION. ahahax
todae we woke up late. my father was really flared up. then he go and like scold us. BLOODY HELL. he even go and say things that are not related to that sleepin matter. ok. every time he was angry he will become like that. VENT IT ON US. RAKES UP ALL THAT STUPID PAST. SAYING MATTERS THAT'RE NOT RELATED. but then we are quite used to it. BUT THEN THAT DOESN'T MEAN THAT I.AM.NOT.ANGRY. so you know what i say when he left and we are eatin our breakfast??
"everytime oso like that. not related things he oso say. WHAT THE FUCK. if i am not a CHRISTIAN i will go and die in front of him."
ok. i know that i will become vulgar whenever i got angry. but then i am still a human. i am not like GOD. He is the kindest person in the world lar.
ok. i am sorry.
and i noe that this is the first time i ever said
fuck in my blog siax.
guess that this will like what you call.
make a commotion outta nuthin?
yupps. i promise that i wun use it for fun lars.
but then only whenever i am TRULY ANGRY. ande whatever matter that makes me angry is quite SERIOUS oredi lor.
whew. tired.
BoA's songs are nice. really nice. i love her singing voice.
guess that i am a bit addicted to dragonfable. and a book i borrowed at the bishan NLB.
hmms. the book rox!!
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♥ 10:06 PM
heyysh
din go to the church camp
mii and moi mum came out this conclusion:
``since i dun wanna pon CO. then it's like i have to go away in the middle of the camp.
``and then seriously... i din realli take MRT in the past. so not sure which train to take lorrs
``i still hav next yr's camp tuhh join
puhh-leese dun laugh kiess?? it's true. i onli take rides in mii papa's car lar.
i dun hav "fang-xiang-gan" kiess??
i am the most TOOPID gal u'll find
in SINGAPORE.
budden i think that it's mii who'll think this way... XDD
budden lyke that very boliao lehhs
then i abit HOUHUI lerrs
nvm. i dun wanna FANHUI. i dun like this larss.
wadeva lorr. i made mii decision and that's it kiess??
i think now they're havin lunch. yahhs. thie lunch fees oso included in the camp fees - $25
isit expensive?? i dun think so lehhs. budden mii mama says too ex liao.
haishh. i dun care liao larrs. now i gtg lerrs. plae halfwae. then isabelle come andd tell mii that mii time is over.
errr.. i think that i sae like i'm goin to die llike that?? CHOI!! hahax
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♥ 10:18 PM
sheesh.
2dae i very guai.
u noe why??
bcos i
finalli do the holiday assessment on MLG!! hahax
no lah.
jus *pwint* onli. then ltr do??
OF COURSE!!!
then wat u suppose?
wait until next yr then like so late harrs?
they say nid to read 3 books and do those 2 worksheets given on MLG.
wah sehh... heng arhhs
thank GOD that i oredi finsh readin "the 5 people u meet in heaven".
waliao. it's realli a nice book.
it's even on the bestsellers' list...
ohhh yahhs
forgot to tell u
they still wann us to READ NEWSPAPER
EVERYDAYAND DO THAT VOCAB BOOK
eeeeeyerr!!!!
newspapaer so BOLIAO
then the vocab book like "mei you yi si"
do oso dunno wat i do for wat
but then i still get to noe new words
mi english sucks
thats why i nid to learn VOCAB
and then i still forgot where i put the VOCAB BOOK larrs
aiyohs
then how to do?
CAN LIKE DUN DO
puhhhhh-leese
nah. i HACK CARE.
jus wait till i find it then i try to do bahhs
wait. i tink i noe where i put it.
in the school bag??
hahax
nope. i checked it liaoxx.
ai yahhs. dun do. or maybe tmr then find lorrs
wun die derr. hahax >.<
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♥ 7:44 PM
hahax
yesterdae weeeeee!!!
had so much fun siax...
let mii see. wat we do yesterdae @ the BBQ class gatherin??
okies.
first we meet @ the MRT station.
i ran there.
then i called alwyn where to meet.
then he say @ control station.
waliao... he and the other gals lyke. SPEAK SO LOUDLY.
his voice was oredi like an amplifyer. XDD
then i rmb givin mel her b-dae pressie.
a keychain wif her name and the handphone thingy.
i dunno wat to call that handphone thingy.
aiya
it's jus something that u put on ur handphone.
ok
mi english suck kies??
wahhhh
mel gort so much pressies!!!
xian mu herr
then ltr on we sat on the stairs and waited.
eunice came.
then i accopany her to the toilet and then waited for her to change in to her skirt.
she said that she bought the wrong size.
then she used the hair clip 2 pin up the skirt.
then we walked 2 mdm lee derr home.
wahhh
so mani traffic lightxx
i walk until siao.
quite a far distance if u walk.
then the ppl oredi there liao
we wrote the dedication to mdm lee on a BIG RED BOARD.
in the function rm.
then we
secretly ate the sausages
valerie tempted us
hahax
no lah.
we oso wanted to eat it ourselves
then we went outside.
wahhh
nice smell=temptation=makin u hungry=AHHHHHH
i dun care liao
i first take chiken wing
then the sausage
then i drink coke
onli like that lorrs
THEN WAT U THINK?? I GOBBLE UP EVERYTHING??
then ltr the gang go and plae water.
aiyohh
mii short wet liao
giv thx to the LORD that it dries afterwards
then i was @ the plaeground swing
YIPEE!!
hahax
i feel realli like a kid
so long nvr plae a swing liao
then i kip on SMS ing while the rest of them go and plae water.
then the guard came
"OI!!"
that ole man shouted.
then everyone there ran away.
like movie?? hahax
then they hide into the steam bath
didnt realli noe that ppl under 16 yrs ole cannot go in lehhs
then i
help to eat up food
aiya
alwyn tell mii to "help miself"
i cannot eat lerr
he still wanted mii to eat...
zixuan and sean was very funni
kip on plaein "sissors paper stone" to see who will finish the food.
then mdm lee still wanna BBQ more food
told elena to go NTUC to buy more charcoal
then that zhan qing guy was very quiet
sat at one corner watchin us
i tot he quite OPEN??
nah
in the end we gathered @ the function rm there
plaed the cards wif brande them all
then bein disturbed
bcos the "organizers" wanted to get us into the main thing
that is to like giv out certificates??
then they all say that cheryl is goin to transfer school
sad for her
bcos she's suchh a nice gal
a nice personn to tok 2, realli
then the ppl giv out those cards that we wrote to our 3 best fwenxx
hmms
quite sad that nobodi wrote to mii
budden nvr mind. i still gort next tyme lorr >.<
then they announce that MELISSA IS MS. 1 DEVOTION!!
happy for her
at first i was oso very shocked
budden i oredi guessed liao
bcos she quite popular mahhs
hahax
then YIJIE IS THE MR. 1 DEVOTION
waliao
this time i then realli shocked sia
how can he be mr. 1 devotion??
nvm.
so i gav the cards i wrote to the 'chers to mdm lee
she said "xie xie ni"
i felt so warm...
then i walked wif melmel
we took pics when we're @ the traffic lights there...
hahaz. quite lame? nope. i dun think so...
she oso admit herself that this yr she had the most bdae presentxx
then we parted and i went home.
haix.
mi miraculous journey ended here
1 DEVOTION RAWKXX 4EVA!!!!
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♥ 1:05 AM
as u can see.
i updated blog.
AGAIN.
grr.
mel said "AGAIN?"
on MSN.
i agree wif her.
nah.
i'm jus not satisfied wif the ole' blog design.
not happy mahhs.
now then i am happy larr.
at least i gort insert a lovely song.
~sarang in ga yo~
~keudae nawa kat damyeon shee ja geen gayo~
~mamee jakoo keudael sarang handaeyo~
~onsae sagee teutdorok soreecheenneyo~
~wae ee jeya teul lee jyo~
~ooohh~
~seorol mannagee weehae ee je ya sarang cha jaa dago~
heyys.
this is the chorus.
I LURRVE "the 5 peeple you meet in heaven"
!!
such a nice book.
u hav to admit.
read until lyk half?
lesser bahhs
budden then its nice aniwaes...
written by MITCH ALBOM
quite handsome
budden then pic is black and white derrh
dunno whether he is an old man or not...
haix.
i spent mii last moment of usin the pc here...
lyk this is very sad?
can someone jus act cryin??
BOOHOO~~~
haha.lame.
that's wat i hav in mind.
so now i guess that i will never change the blog template until weeks ltr...
yupps that's all FOLKS!!! ^.^
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♥ 10:55 PM
rote this on 16 NOV.
nah.
i dun like it.
i m alwaes givin empty promises to miiself.
i promised that i will do asses bk.
i promised that i will practice mii piano.
i promised that i will practice mii pipa.
i promised that i will not plae the pc too long.
dammit.
i did not even fulfill one of them not even one
not even one.
i hate ppl not tinkin bfore speakin... i onli mean that i hate onli the behavior. but not the person.
i hate this kinda attitute.
stupid. idiotic. shitty. bloody hell.
i dunnno wat i am tokin now.
cant control.
everythin jus burst out.
what the.
dammit.
God, i am sry that i used this kinda harsh words in mii blog. pls forgiv mii.
i noe that i shud not spit out those words.
i am not goin to erase them away.
i am goin to show the world that i, serena chia, oso did not think bfore i speak.
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♥ 8:19 PM
this blog gort probs derrhs.
the date and the time all WRONG!!! i mean the SINGAPORE time...
i tell u. i wrote this on 15 NOV kiess??
grr...
2dae gort CO practice... i plan to practice mii pipa ltr. not @ CO rm. i mean @ home pls... then oso i ni 2 do asses. bk.s. u noe y? yupps. mii mama wants mii to like. revise the whole thing again. so that mae-b i wun do so badly AGAIN. yeah. u noe wat i mean by "AGAIN". kies??
I WANNA PIPA GRADE PLEEEEEEEESE!!!!! budden mama says :"DO u think that u hav the time to practice? Ur CO takes up alot of ur time oredi. And then u are like so busy."
i noe. wat she says IS THE TRUTH. church activities. piano. CO practices. all these took up LOADS of mii time. but is this realli mi fault? orite. i dun hav ani wrong. jus that i nid to plan mii time well. PLS... i wanna BURST liaox.
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♥ 7:57 PM
lalalalalalaasss..
mel told mii that this week all the proj cancell lerrhhs...
hoo. i tot that i nid to go bankrupt again. bcos i gort no $ borhhs
wahahaha ^.^
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♥ 8:46 PM
hmmms. updated mi blog liaox. AGAIN.
changed the background. the cursor. wishlist. wateva.
LOADS okays??
2dae mornin when i woke up i dun feel well. stomachache. budden the feelin gone awae bout 1 hr later. then i when 2 ate breakfast. yupps. then when my father left (which is indeed very early in the mornin, 'bout 9?) i went to turn on the pc. then this is the time when i go play and then blog or wateva. yupps. then halfway i feel lyke goin to the toilet. VERY URGENT. then i rushed to the toilet and then... yupps. i bet u oredi know the rest of the story. i wonder wat i ate yesterdae...
'bout the last post that i hav typed... ok. those are from the bottom of mi heart. NOT FAKE ONE WORRX... kkaes. anibodi dun bliv it's not mi prob kies??
then mel says that her keyboard spoil... dunno wat happened.... maybe she pressed too hard lerrs. aiyax... bleh. jus wish that her keyboard will quickly recover bahhs.
haix... TODAE GORT CO..... nahhs. i haven even practice lahh.
aniwaes these are the things that i shud do ltr. jus in case i forgot, at least i rmb wat i typed in my blog:
`eat lunch
`do asses bk.
`practice pipa
` '' piano
`go for CO practice...
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♥ 2:02 AM
i am goin to explode. I REALLI WANT TO SAY THIS!!!! budden when i am facin him... yahhs... my legs turn jelly. this guy alwaes explode without warnin and reason. tsk.. really. i doubt he will even see this post. so i will sae anithin i like. hope that he wun cum to bash me up or anithin... XDD
TO JUSTIN:
errr. i dunno where to start.
tsk. ok. i wanna ask. is there anithin about mii that u HATE TO THE CORE??
hmmm. haix. i dun even noe when i de-zui u leh. i forgot everythin lerrs.
maybe i am too arrogant in your eyes or wat. or maybe u hate me bcos that u see mi cried alot of times. budden let me get this straight. i am not pretendin. those are my true feelings that i am pourin out. and oso humans hav the rights to hav breakdowns at times, includin me. kkaes?? and then one more thing. though i win u in studies, u still win mii in pipa orite?? it's not the end of the world okae... jia you....
nevertheless. thx for teachin me pipa in CO, even though u hate me or anithin...
i gort more to sae kaess?? dun tink that i hav little to bottle up. I GORT ALOT ORITE!!! unlike u guys which are tokativ... obviously i speak less larr.
even though u dislike me. i dun sae that i dislike u or wat rite. it's jus that becos of ur temperamental character that i dun quite like u lorrs. u like CANNON like that larr. u angry, u go bomb the whole area like wat. then wat is left behind is jus ppl's boey-song expressions. budden when u are feelin happy then the atmosphere is like very gd larrs. I DUNNO LARRS! up to you okies?? jus dun go and BOMB me siax...
and then mae-b we can be friends? bcos i dun realli like bein ur arch-enemy larrs. it makes my life more and more sickenin. i noe tt behind that temperamental character of urs, u r a kind person. i noe that "wo bu hui kan cuo ren". nahhs. friend or foe. u choose. thats all i wanna say.
CONCLUSION OF JUSTIN CHUA: a scary/temperamental senior but a nice and kind pipa 'cher...
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♥ 1:40 AM
ok. dedications now. i know that i am dyin to say somethin.
TO mii pipa seniors:
okies. i tink that none of them will even see this post larrs. but nevertheless, i still wanna sae this.
i noe that i hav limited strength kies?? i dunno means i dunno. and then i nid time 2 PRACTICE. both mii pipa and piano. i tink these are the reasons why i didnt really do well in CO larrs. budden i tink the main reason is that i dun dare to ask both of u for help. tsk. u noe that i am that kinda really nei-xiang gal larrs. even the 'chers i oso dun ask derrs. i hate myself okies?? budden JUSTIN. u realli teach mii larrs. u realli like piont out where i hav gone wrong. A MiLLioN THanKS FoR THaT
WENYI: i noe that i made you feel that i dun like you or somethin. budden seriously. i dun dislike you. it's jus that i feel that u r sorta pian-xin to justin. that's all. but then of course u will do that. bcos i am not close 2 u aniwae. it's mi entire fault. I DESTROYED THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN US. bcos i alwaes break down. kept runnin to the toilet to cry...so... if i had another chance, can we be friends?? and then i will try my very best in practicin mi pipa...
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♥ 9:23 PM
nahhs.
updated mii blog lerrs.
i am simply satisfied wif it.then i am jus waitin for peeps to link mii. that's all.
but the only thing that i am not happy with is the taggie board. it's like being blocked. bleh.
haix. budden i am oso shocked that i can do this all by MYSELF. blar blar blar... here i "chui niu' again... duhhs
oh no... the SYF still gort another song?? i didnt noe that.. i asked Lihui and then she told mii derr. haix... one is we ownself pick derr. then the other song is standard one. that means it's everybodi must play de. jus lyk in the "jue dui SUPERSTAR '05". gort 2 buck up lorrs.
and then i feel lyk writin tributes 2 PHSCO and to other ppl... so mani things to say... i "ren" very long oredi. budden let's do this another day kaess?? bcos i use the com too long lerrs. and then hav 2 kip remindin myself to PRACTICE PIANO!!! haix. i CHIONG ARRS!!!
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♥ 6:26 PM
ok.
i decided 2 do mii deication to 1 devotion '06 here.
i know that i jus "she bu de" u all guys. though that i didnt realli speak in class, i still tink that u all r nice guys. especially cheryl and the gang, u all organised things properly, makin sure that everybody is comfortale with everythin. u UNITED US ALL.
i noe that guys, i did not realli participated in everythin that is held 4 us. i m trulii sorry. i jus cant accomodate. mae-b bcos i am too scared to lyke, "jie chu" u all.
budden bear in mind that guys, i do lurrve 1 devotion '06. and i giv mii best wishes 2 everyone for the years ahead. wateva u do, put in ur BEST EFFORT kies? are u all ready for next yr's challenge?
i noe that next yr will be a tough one for all SEC ONES '06. in sec two, we'll hav the streamin and stuffs lyk that. but still, jus tink that u can do it. and CHIONG arhhs!!! yarr. somethin lyk that.
though it's mii whoo said all this. i still feared next yr. After seeing my results, mum says that if i dun work hard next yr, she's lyk goin to write a letter to 'cher n say that i am not to join CO animore. i was lyke. damn SHOCKED. i noe why i am shocked. bcos i oso quite lyked CO. budden it's lyke sometimes bcos of it, i becum more busier.
tsk.
i hav 2 start plannin mii tyme.
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♥ 6:22 AM
okies.
i noe that it is obvious. i changed the blog skin.
I PRO LEHHS!!
i do all changes of the template on moi own. but still nid melmel 2 insert taggie board 4 mii.
well.
i suddenlii feel lyk cryin when i linked mii blog o 1 devotion '06 derrhx. i dunno why. it's lyk sorta wind sweepin over mii 'n' now i still get the shudders of it.
but i tink that after a bit of reflection. i noe that reason.
i love 1 devotion 06.
jus love. nuthin else. no hate. but now that i m rememberin all that we hav gone through. haix.
i cannot deny that i jus cant leave.
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♥ 2:45 AM
nahxx...
now i m watchin tsubasa..
THUMBS UP FOR THE ANIME!!
bleh.
okies. i've oredi promised that i will go 'n' practice moi piano. IN THE END. haix. jus cant resist the temtatiom to plae pc all dae.
CAN SUM-ONE JUS PULL MII OUT OF THIS??!!
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♥ 1:50 AM
ahem...
it's sooo long since the last tyme i've posted on moi blog.
nah.
i decided that 2dae i wun b so "rainbow-ic" in this post.
so mani things happened sia.
lyke. i dunno wat to say lorrs.
yupps. first thing is the open hse. I AM SO HAPPY THAT IT IS FINALLY OVER!!!!
ok.i am not exaggeratin. it is so KONG BU and so embarrasin!!!
yah. u noe that wenyi was not there-moi pipa senior lahs. then it was lyke we (justin n mii) hav to learn "guang ming xing" in that ONE HOUR. i was lyke wat u call so panicky. okies. at least i gort learnt a lil' bit lorrs. then when it's lyke we are performin, then it's lyke the "ah xi tiao yue" lyke wat larrs. i plae like siao. dotx. i was actualli sorta actin at tymes. but most part of the song lyke 7/8 i was realli plaeing. then here cums the TOOPID AND EMBARRASSIN moment. duhs. we plaed the guang ming xing larrs. and then it's lyke we dun realli hav the complete score. we onli hav part 1 and part 3 larrs. part 2 was missin. then when it came to part 2 i was lyke. TOTALLI LOST. then i looked up and saw that ji lao shi was like holdin a video cam in her hand and then RECORDIN larrs. waliao. i was like an idiot face. TOTALI lost. wat wil they think? grrrr... 4get it. i am not goin to lyke mull over it. it's the past, aniwae.
then i wanted to REALLI leran guang ming xing. becos next yr i am goin to be a sec 2. i need to noe how to plae a few songs. if not. HOW CAN I TEACH THE JUNIORS WHICH R TO ENTER CO NEXT TYME? how m i goin 2 improve on moi pipa? YEARS, I TINK! bleh.
okies. i sorta addicted to TSUBASA lerrs. it's such a nice anime larrs. i read the first volume of the comics--which i onli had of the whole or the comics--and then i was totalli asorbed lar. nah. if there's an emergency lyk xamz r cumin, wud u mind if u can teach mii how to pull moiself out of it?? XD
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